I’ve always been “a lot.” I’ve been called “too much.” My intensity has sometimes been off-putting and some have just viewed me as a “pain in the ass.” All of these things are true. But knowing this also provides a balance giving us what is on the other side of the old-fashioned grocery scale. I bring a sort of agitation that can be as positive as not, if we look at it from a different angle. Agitators bring lots of good things. You can’t make a brilliant soufflé without an agitator. You can’t have a delicious vinaigrette. You can’t make ice cream. You can’t wash clothes. Agitators are necessary. Agitators create change…create art…create new points of view with interesting voices. Agitating is not inherently negative at all.
When people choose, yes, choose, to see us from the positive, glowing lens, then we are refreshing. My sister shared a quote with me yesterday that said you can’t be too much for someone who can’t get enough of you. Yes! I am big. I am passionate. I certainly can be difficult. I am so much, and yet, I can only very intentionally be my best self. By doing this, I energetically welcome all kinds of beautiful things. Manifesting gloriousness, enlightenment, and attunement with others is fundamentally what our souls came here for. We are here to artfully live with passion and abundance in all kinds of different forms. If you are an introvert, you are not less. If you are an exceptionally loud extrovert, you are not too much…at least not for those who can actually see you…see the unique and powerful, purposeful you.
In order to fully relish the blessings of life, we must accept the wholeness of all that is. To truly enjoy you and love you, I must accept the entirety of what comes with you. If I want all the great things that make me love you in the first place, the light that is the very essence of you, you must accept all the darker, less attractive qualities that come with all of us. We are all works in progress. We are all sculptors molding the clay that is us.
Many people may turn away from you. Let them. Learn what you need from the experience and leave the rest behind. What I am learning to do is to actively look for the people turning toward you…sometimes running to you…looking up to you…following you…learning along side you…loving you and embracing the wholeness of your big, huge self. Some may be here to stay quiet and introspective. Some may need to learn the depths of pain and struggle to better grow their empathy and compassion, and really what anyone else is here on the planet to learn is none of our damned business. Their soul contract with God/the Universe is not up to us and really has nothing to do with us. Ever.
All you have to do is shine your light. If you prefer to be a little twinkle, great. If you are a darkness piercing flashlight, great. If you are a floodlight signaling the way for others to follow, great. If you are listening to your own highest self and doing your best, then you are doing it all right. You can’t be too much of who you are.
And mastering that is the true art of fully living.